reverb10 :: december 17

December 17 Lesson Learned

What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year?

And how will you apply that lesson going forward?

I think I've known this for sometime, but I need to keep knowing it, being reminded of it, and having it reinforced. That lesson or rather that thing about me is that my goal needs to be to start my own business. I've known this since the day I started working in the toy store right after I turned 16. I'm not satisfied with a desk job. At all. Class after class, business plan after business plan this last year, I'm getting closer to be ready to do this. What exactly? I kind of have an idea that I blogged about a little bit ago. It will be a tremendous amount of work, but something that I think I can find joy in. I'm not trying to be picky about my job, it's just I know that there's one out there that can be fulfilling, even it means not making as much money, which doesn't bother me at all.

Throughout my classes, I've realized what a control freak I am about things. I'd rather take on an extra work load in groups so that I can make our presentations beautiful and our paper fabulous. I can't say all my group members have had this same "passion" or desire to have our deliverables pretty or in perfect APA formatting. For example, in my presentation last night, although I offered many times and even started a incredible-looking powerpoint, my other team member wanted to put our presentation together. And I didn't say a word. It looked great. I'm still a little stressed thinking about it. I have to give up some of that OCD control I tend to have. In a team environment, I'm able to practice this more and more. And I have to know - it will be ok.